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essektheylyss · 7 months ago

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my problem with art is that to get better at line art I need to practice line art but it's so much easier to fudge everything with paint. so I get into the line art and then two minutes later I'm painting. on the upside I have greatly improved at painting but STILL. THE LINEART. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD.

#and i knowwww i don't need to be able to do line art if i just like painting but I ALSO LIKE LINE ART. WHEN I CAN DO IT.#anyway I'm fine I'm cool everything's fine #i am like very slowly getting better at line art cuz i constantly want more definition in my painting but argh #would be so much easier if i could just... do line art for a while.#@ artists who do really nice sketches and line art i am salivating over your style cuz i love it so much and your dedication is admirable #i feel like people really do not have enough appreciation for how difficult it is to do sketches that are like... nice.#clean sketches are deceptively difficult. they look so easy but getting them clean is like. UGH. SKILL.

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kirby-the-gorb · 2 months ago

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#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #va appeal hearing was today #not a fun time to have to try to granularly recall everything that. yknow. permanently destroyed my body and mind and life.#probably went fine? definitely cried in front of the judge but everyone was super cool about it.#also thank god my wife was there they let her give testimony as both my wife and as a doctor #(which she is)#(obviously)#but like I'm still So Sick and it's all this up and down and we're still fighting to get stabilized so I usually don't have time or energy #to like stop and look around at the quicksand I've been keeping myself afloat in this whole time #but today was very much 'hey tell me about this quicksand huh'#and it's just like a lot to deal with yknow #I'll be fine it's just A Lot #anyway shoutout to the folks who are either kind or nosy enough to read my tag rambles all the time lol #(the actual decision will still take up to 2 more years btw)#(hopefully not! but they said it could)#(although apparently a board denial isn't the end of the road anymore which is news to me)#(maybe they changed it in the 44 months since I filed for the appeal hearing lol)#(not a typo)#favorites

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juchily · 10 days ago

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caitlyn try not to become a dictator, engage in chemical warfare and engage in police brutality challenge:

#Not a post against Caitlyn I love that woman #But I love her and so it's obvious she's gone a bit batshit insane after her mother died #With the chemical warfare vi and the rest of the squad were complacent #And maybe it would have been fine if they did it in a controlled amount but isn't it implied that they've been gassing the whole #Underground? Or at least a good part of people who aren't Jinx #And the only person to stand against Caitlyn becoming general is that one guy Vi drank with #(I'm sorry I don't know his name but I hope we see more of him)#Anyways poor vi and poor jinx and poor everyone and I hope vi and jinx get better #And fucking hell sevika you had one job hunny I love you for everything besides basically pulling the lever #That allowed piltover to now launch a dictatoral storming of your city #Caitvi #arcane season 2 #jinx arcane #vi arcane #caitlyn kiramman #Anyways like jinx said I hope they get to fuck nasty before they both inevitably died #Can you tell I just finished part one?#Sorry I didn't talk about Jay or vik they are so cool here really love vik getting a sense of purpose as becoming #The shimmer abusers' personal jesus #Good for you bud

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hoforwonho · 2 years ago

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Leedo - SexyBack

#leedo #oneus #kpopco #foroneus #kflops #ultkpopnetwork #weusnet #dailybg #userkngld #anyway i'm not okay #lOOK AT HIM #I #im fine chill cool all good here everything is fine #nothing to see here folks just me bashing my head against my desk #addy.gifs

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alfhildr-the-word-weaver · 5 months ago

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I got thinking too much about Marwa from What We Do in the Shadows again and how she was canonically making observations of Jupiter and Saturn in the 1200s. Then I thought about how Elena took Damon to go watch a meteor shower, and I decided that Marwa and Elena should get away from all the vampire drama B.S. in their lives and go nerd out about astronomy together, and this moodboard sort of happened. I also thought about how Elena becomes a doctor and went ah, they are both women in STEM! So I ran with that as a theme too.

But yeah, Marwa needs a friend who will actually support her interests and engage with her intellectually (no shade to Nadja and the Guide, I'm glad they had a fun weekend watching Mamma Mia together which was literally the only time we got to actually see Marwa happy onscreen, but they have never demonstrated much interest in science that I can recall and I want Marwa to have an astronomy buddy), and I think Elena would be fascinated by her and her perspectives on astronomy from centuries ago, and they could learn about modern astronomical advances together. If I find the time and energy I might even write fic about it, but for now, here is a moodboard so that we can all bask in the vibes of my beautiful crossover vision together.

Image sources: x x x / x (the first frame of x gif + a screenshot from x) x / x + x x x

#Elena Gilbert #Marwa wwdits #Marwa/Elena #Marlena #Marwalena #I'm not necessarily viewing this as a romantic ship but I'm also not not viewing it as one. take it either way as it pleases you #rowing the rarepair rowboat #(thank you freddieslater for letting me use that tag that's such a good tag)#the Vampire Diaries #What We Do in the Shadows #Marwa the Relentless #at first I didn't want to call her that because Nandor is such garbage to her. not even garbage. he hollows her out and destroys her soul #but I like the idea that she is also relentless in her own way. if only insomuch as she survived him. which really she didn't #the more I think about what happened to Marwa the more I feel like she endured the worst fate imaginable. I mean what Nandor did to her was #really so much more evil than any of the compulsion we see in Vampire Diaries because I mean he completely erased everything that made her #who she was. He chipped away at her personality and her sense of self bit by bit until he literally deleted anything recognizable as Marwa #from existence. I need to scream about it.#and the only scene with her smiling is the one I took that screenshot from. The only. Scene.#anyways I'm so glad she's fine now & having fun showing Elena cool telescopes and telling her about all of Jupiter's moons &how to see them #I love astronomy so if somebody on TV mentions liking astronomy I become bonded for life with them. lol #TVD rarepair rowboat #WWDITS #not to be anti-wwdits; I do love Nandermo. but they did Marwa so dirty #Justice for Marwa!#astronomy moodboard #I made this weeks ago but I got so busy with the play but now the play is over and I went 'hey remember that moodboard you should post it'#so here it be :)#it's not the best moodboard I've ever made but I made it in a passionate fervor of feminist energy and I like it

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cosmic-ships · 6 months ago

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........fuck

#FUCK IT ALL!#/not mad. actually a little mad but in a fun way? wait what?#Why the hell was I struck with this thought the MOMENT I started fallout? lol #ridiculous #Anyways! I had a thought. NOT THAT I AM FOR SURE #but like- ITS AN IF!#IF I DID make an S/I WHICH I AM NOT! I could see Clyde being 100% shy to talk to them- simply because Clyde believes his family is ''cursed #Just because something bad happens to each of their family members in some way (sans him and his brother's sister)#Clyde is a little superstitious as well- As he associated a word with a time where he went to juvey as a kid after the word was said so now #he associates it with something bad happening-#anyways yeah- I feel like he'd be very shy in his own way around my SI WHICH IS FINE #BECAUSE THERE ISN'T GONNA BE AN S/I EVERYTHING IS FINE! ITS NORMAL WE'RE COOL! ARE YOU COOL!? I'M COOL!

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eggmeralda · 15 days ago

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that period of time between south park post covid being announced in 2021 to summer 2022 when everyone got obsessed with truffula flu was moderately heavenly

#i'm going through all my chronological memory hoarding playlists from late 2013 to now #taken all day but i'm currently on around june 2022 and it's so nostalgic #but like that entire time was unreal #never forget south park post covid announcement literally curing me of like 2 years worth of on and off depression #i was like still weakly crawling out of the abyss and then adult scientist philanthropist kenny jsut yanked me out of there so easily #no warning #and then i was fine. it was so funny to me like i was in the middle of my eateot induced existential crisis where i couldn't sleep and then #everything was just normal? literally whatever episode of my life i was in had ended and everything reset for the next episode #which was such a good episode as well. and then the tflu era??#reading every existing camp entre blog within a month #and then the swag and bitter archives. literally the summer of all time #not just for that i mean it was just a good summer anyway #the only logical direction for life to go in after that was down bc i'd literally peaked for about 8 months #but it was a good time while it lasted #this was meant to be a happy ''remember the good times'' post but how come i'm only allowed to be happy for like a year at most #but i'm allowed to be in the abyss for 2 years #hopefully not longer bc i'm only now just getting over the cursed half of 2022 that doesn't exist to me (sep-dec)#but like. 2015 and first part of 2016 good. 2016-2018 bad #end of 2018 and most of 2019 good. end of 2019-summer 2021 bad #end of 2021-summer 2022 good. end of 2022-now bad #the maths does not add up #anyway shoutout november 2021-july 2022 i love you soooooooo much you were so sexy <3 #(apart from the agoraphobia but that was part of the fun)#(like i'd be out in public and i'd see a pic of entre on my phone and i guess too much serotonin would be released in my brain and i'd get #anxiety and have to go home and i couldn't eat in public and i basically couldn't leave the house)#(because i was too obsessed with tflu)#(that wasn't the main reason it was mostly a wild fear of food poisoning from anything. but tflu didn't help and that is so cool of it)#(truly an iconic time. okay stop talking)#ramble

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autumnrory · 4 months ago

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woooo my niece took 5 of my 13 lego sets, one of which was one of the three larger ones, so that's one huge box out of the way and i'm just glad she wanted them because like they ARE twenty years old and they look fine ofc but sometimes kids aren't gonna want stuff that isn't new and shiny ya know, but she did seem to want everything which would've been fine with me but i knew there was no way they would take all that with them, and at least i still have stuff of my own to sell, plus should get at least a cut of my brother's stuff for doing the inventory and putting together that stuff that wasn't already done

#i mentioned the hp sets and how they had been pretty much left together and he was like '....i had harry potter sets?'#which once he saw them he did think they were familiar which was some of my feeling with mine #like oh YEAH i do remember these i just didn't remember having so many #i mean between 13 sets it's really like 3 categories so i would've played with like the whole ice palace and its related sets #i do just wonder how it'll be at the store like everything is pretty much in fine shape #and probably there are people who want older stuff that's rarer and whatever now #BUT then there might be more of a demand for newer stuff at a better price or whatever idk #anyway 6 sets left in the upstairs and then the bionicles and statue of liberty are still in the attic #i'm still not convinced there couldn't be another box somewhere bc idk how to explain the few sets #that are missing so much that i can't actually do them bc even if we had gotten rid of some why would we not include the huge base or w/e #anyway we'll see! but i'm getting closer! and i did a little one this morning #that seemed to be complete it didn't list some of the pieces as extras but based on the instructions i figure they have to be #so i don't really need them like i'll include them if i find them and they're not needed for something else but yeah #anyway i can go back to fic though these first two at least are short so i may be going back to another one tomorrow #can't wait to have my room back though fr like #it is not the only thing making it feel messy because i have newer jewelry and clothes and stuff that i just have to organize and put away #but man the jewelry situation is just. it's not even having so many pieces it's like big earrings that take up a lot of space or whatever #so i just have not wanted to deal with it but it's kinda out of hand #but i can really think about that after this particular project is done #and do puzzles again oh my god i have 3 puzzles waiting for me at least #plus my mom always has a bunch to be done since everyone knows to buy her puzzles lol but that has also gotten out of hand #i wouldn't mind getting rid of a couple of mine though just bc it is like okay you do it but then you just have it and it takes up space #would be cool to have pretty ones framed tho

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mistwalkers-menagerie · 2 months ago

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TRoP Season Finale spoilers under the cut

Fuck this show.

If this was fanfic I'd gobble it the fuck up but these people are writing official Tolkien stuff. Half-assed bluster poetics ain't really gonna cut it for me even though I'm not a Tolkien purist.

Rest in peace Adar, you would've loved the Tragedy of Julius Caesar (not)

#never for a moment have i been a hater but #they try even if clumsily build up sympathy for the orcs through Glúg and through their loyalty to Adar #only for them to turn coat OFF SCREEN?#like yeah orcs will orc I'm not mad about them betraying him but HOW they betrayed him #like you give us a really cool concept of Nenya healing Adar's very soul the moment before you kill him off?#why tf was Adar in the forest anyway why not enter Eregion to execute Sauron on the spot?#he HAD to lose at one point I ain't delulu but this death wasn't poetic to me it was just a waste #like I see the semblance of logic in everything the writers do but it all falls so flat #like Adar had this big powerful moment at the end of ep 7 only for him to be Julius Caesar-d by GLÚG of all people?#there were signs but honestly #Glúg choosing fucking Sauron because he was mad at Adar trying to protect HIM and all the Uruks like #what was the point of Glúg then it's like they couldn't make up their fucking minds about whether orcs can be capable of redemption or not #and don't get me started on the Balrog getting like 30 seconds after they've been teasing it all season and even the season 1 #or that Isidul the most crucial CANON character to the story didn't do shit all season aside from homewrecking lol #also Arondir is fine??? Apparently??? Like completely fine???#and the whole Rhún sequence was just filler in the end too #bruh #i've never been a hater before to anything and yeah there IS bias on my part regarding Adar but #irrelevant things are given depth and actually interesting narratives are left shallow and just crumble under all the flawed logic #mist mumbles #mist rants and raves

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keeps-ache · 2 months ago

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alright, perhaps it is time to start colourmaxxing

#just me hi #okay so i got an mp3 player for m birthday (yippee !! woohoo :D) and the earphones i got w/ them don't fit in my. ears hgkfjs #like the left one is fine but my right ear is too small for the bud.. and it's not one of those ones with the rubber thing so i can't fix #the sizing lol </3 #anyway so i'm looking for earbuds that won't explode if an ant touches them lol ; i found some that come in blueeee #my player is red.. i Could just get black.. but clownmode starts Now lmfvhsh #/yea so the player situation;#it has radio (YAYYY 💫💥💫💥💫) but it can't hop on any wifi so i have to download onto my computer and then onto the thang #which is okay. or WOULD be [dun dun] if i didn't put every song i liked ever into one playlist Lmaofjvshj #400+ songs in one playlist Is difficult.. and i still have some character playlists i wanna add lollllll #so doing that rn.. oohoo...#i've managed to get it down to like 294 which is cool but i am hanging on to groups of songs i do not care about for some reason kfhsvbh #cuz i add music in clumps so everything is in 'groups' that only i can see lol :)#i don't wanna spend a bajillion years downloading this stuff thoughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh houuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu #ofc there are groups that simply cannot go. like the whiteboard sections and that entire coin album Lmaoo #but also man i don't think i'm in the brain space for this rn pfshv #i am hearing sounds and i do not care. but also i think i do so i just leave them there for future me to check later kfsh #anywho i'm gonna try to get it down to around the 100s #that Does mean i have to removed 94 songs rn tho... difficult decisions really bfsh #//aaaaanywho i'll prolly just save the rest of this for later #i've got other things i should be doing and things i wanna be doing and things i need to do or i'm going to turn into sludge again so hfhs #back at it like always!! i should get some water....#but YEA. toodles :3

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youremyonlyhope · 7 months ago

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why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up

#i'm overthinking something that i did and was told off for doing by my director #and on my way home i was thinking when was the last time i was even talked to like that during a production #and then i remembered the costume experience from hell of only a couple months ago that i've already began blocking out #but the thing is that that person was someone i knew i'd never have to work with again #i mean at first i thought i would have to work with them more. then they announced they were moving away immediately #so i only had to deal with them face to face for another weekish after that point and anytime they yelled at me #i was like 'cool. i'll do exactly what you say to do. and nothing more.' but then of course me being me #i did some extra stuff and they initially were like 'oh that's pretty' and then days later told me to cut everything i added #and like sure i get that the show was frozen but girl. that costume was unfinished. i was trying to finish it. it was frozen but looked bad #anyway. whenever they yelled at me and had actual malice in their heart i was like whatever. i was hurt. but i didn't care as much.#but this time it's someone i've worked with many many times before and it was about a habit i have that i know isn't great #but at the same time the thing that prompted it wasn't even me doing this habit it was something else #but she interpreted it as that habit and said that i can't do that on a production she's directing #and that if i couldn't stop then i could pull out from the production and there'd be no hard feelings between us #and honestly i think her reassuring that she knows i'm valuable and that she wants me there while also telling me not to do this thing #and the fact that she's someone i like working with and will continue to work with just made it all hurt so much more #especially since she referenced another past production we've done where i didn't even realize she had noticed that i do this.#and i found myself in near tears. and still am kind of in near tears. i can't decide if i need to cry or not.#and i had NO sleep last night so i was looking forward to sleeping tonight but now i'm just overthinking EVERYTHING #and like. i know everything will be fine. if i just stop inserting myself and stick to just my specific tasks. it'll be fine.#but this is one of the ways my ocd manifests. i feel like i have to personally fix something i notice going wrong. or it'll be bad.#because every single time i choose to sit back and not be nosy when i notice something it ends up bad in a way i could have prevented #if i just inserted myself in a situation i technically wasn't part of but knew i could help or fix. so i just need to not do that.#but then i feel guilt if it does go wrong in the ways i immediately assumed it would and in a way i could prevent.#and i've been trying to work on this for like 6 months and aaaahhhh it's hard and being called out on it from her just really really hurt #i still may or may not cry. i don't know. the irony of me telling my therapist THIS MORNING that it's been a while since i last cried.#and the universe being like 'i took that as a challenge' and handing me this situation for me to spiral over.#i need to leave things alone. i need to stare straight ahead. and ignore whatever isn't specifically for me to do. but ahhh i want to help #and then of course my mom has this same habit and it annoys me when she does it yet i do it to other people and ahhhhhhhh #brain please just shut up. i need to sleep. i have to work tomorrow.

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h0rr0rsaxo · 11 months ago

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so is it big blond muscleguys in general orrrr /j

Sigh.

Yes. Bonus points if they're pathetic, obsessive and submissive.

#i've been exposed #cool anon #i'm crying #homelander is HOT.#the amount of blonde men that I like is just concerning atp.#should i list it?#i'm gonna list it.#JunkratHomelander Leon KennedyNanamiErwinDenjiDidKurapikaKatsukiTsukishimaElricSuohUsuiTae LangdonLoidGenos #WAIT THERE WAS MORE #there is this other character in a show i was watching with my sister and i forgot his name but he was so fine #dio*#also whitney from DOL but we don't talk about that game..#and if you look on my reblog acc its ALL homelander. like i think i read everything single of him that currently exists on tumblr #my type is literally blonde Australian men as well 💀#im dying #anyways im rambling too much #ฅ'ω'ฅ 𝐌𝐫𝐬. 𝐒𝐚𝐱𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐭

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izzy-b-hands · 3 months ago

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My doctor messaging me at 12:30 in the morning to tell me she wants to do a telehealth visit abt the side effects I'm having with my new Lamotrigine dose (including worse insomnia than my usual insomnia, as u may have guessed lmao) is. something.

#text post #like i know why i am awake babe why are YOU awake this late #and god why do we have to do another visit #they aren't bad enough to make me stop this dose and i haven't been on the new dose long enough to let it even out #can i not just Not have to do another uncomfortable visit where even if things turn out okay after #i later feel like I'm still not being wholly trusted/treated like i know my body and how i feel #i had worse side effects restarting this med months ago and we didn't have any additional visits for that #they fucking forgot to even book me for a f/u and i had to call in and beg for one basically #and then they misbooked it for the wrong reason and with the wrong doctor #and made it out like it was my fault when i made clear i begged and told the receptionist i spoke to to book said appt #that it needed to b with my doc for the Lamotrigine and that i hadn't been told when to follow up so i was just. doing it #bc she said i needed to but then didn't say when to book it #they're trying hard and im trying to give them grace but then this shit happens and like #im tired. makes me want to go into my new doc like nah never mind im fine. don't ask me nothing and i won't bug you with anything #unless im dying or nearly dead already.#would suck beyond believe attempting to raw dog life mostly again but goddamn. im so sick of this lack of stability with my care #anyway. probably an appt next Tuesday which is great #that's the week of the weekend that i work again and the week before my bday #(a bday I'll be working now which I'm not normally irked abt but. i am a bit rn)#so cool. yeah. let's stack anxiety and fear over a medical appt on top of everything else for that week #and that's not counting that this weekend I've been tasked with buying and getting signed a v expensive and rare figure #for my mum's bf and I'm kind of terrified im gonna fuck it up #he paid for tickets to the con the figure will be sold at and that the person he wants to sign it will be at #so if i fuck this up he'll want (understandably) to be paid back asap for that #and that's money i don't fucking have rn #i really wish she had waited till the actual day proper to contact me bc i couldn't sleep before this #and now i definitely cant bc like #it's dumb. but what if she takes my med away. it isn't perfect but it works better than any other med I've tried #what if she wants me to try a new one. i cant do that and b dealing with major side effects during the intense work schedule #that'll be happening for me v soon and then into November

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warlordfelwinter · 2 years ago

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im sure i said this last time i was playing my tav with the descent into avernus backstory but giving descent into avernus as a backstory really makes the "*deep sigh* one day i'll catch a break" dialogue so much funnier like he just fell out of a nautiloid and his reaction is "not this shit again"

#fun bun bard rides again #i got an urge to play again after szass tam was in the movie #cause i learned about him from the magic mirror in this game when you're getting the necromancy of thay #unfortunately the face mod i used to get the cool flame eyes with the slit pupils has changed #and now he still has a cute face #but the eyes are just the normal eyes #in my heart he still has fire eyes with slit pupils #at least everything's working fine with patch 9 that's all that really matters #this time i'm just going to Play #and we'll see if gale's romance truly is fixed #i think it was last time but i ended up speedrunning it anyway so we shall see #fel's bg3 #oc: tav

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thirdpowersa · 1 year ago

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i love using songs to explain my muses because there's something so deeply jordan about this ... yeah

tfw your perception of yourself and your worth and the way other people perceive you is so deeply warped you have no idea how to conceive of the idea that someone might actually mean it when they tell you you're doing good & it must only be because you're doing something that serves them and their idea of what's right & good & has nothing to do with you & everything to do with their expectations ...

everything is transactional and Fake to jordan regarding affection, praise & love because he's never known it to be any different so when someone is being genuine it's like he can't hear them & like they never said anything at all ... yeah ... yeah !!!!! very hard for him to understand that when people say they're proud of him they mean they're proud of him for who he is and not that they're proud he's doing what they want ... as long as he listens and behaves and sacrifices everything for others he's good, perfect & wanted ...

i could go on about this truly but his perception of what it even means to be him is so warped because it took so long for him to even get a bit of the individuality he's been craving his entire life and it's so !!!!! he's always just been whatever other people want/need him to be and when he's not they're disappointed and their love disappears

#anyway i have feelings about him !!!! so so many feelings!!! especially when you consider his relationship with sasha which will #prob be a meta at some point because it fundamentally changes Everything about jordan and the way he sees things ...#sasha being the first time he feels like he's actually loved and appreciated and doesn't have to be the person he thinks he should be ...#yeah i'll die it's fine we're cool i'm normal #sasha is just ... v v important to his canon i added some stuff in his doc abt it and. YEAH...#« my inner child needs a bulletproof vest. » jordan (musings)

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leofrith · 1 year ago

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god knew i would be too powerful if i was allowed to end my last day at hell job on a high note which is why she had to pop my tire on the drive home 😔

#just kidding. i popped my own tire by being a bad driver (swiping a curb in a car with like 6 inches of clearance) 🤡#anyway everything's cool it's fine I'm just annoyed agshdhff #HELL JOB OVERRRRRRR #ky posts text

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